Ne·glect ~ To leave undone or unattended to especially through carelessness.
This is exactly what I have done regarding my blog over the last 3 months or so. My mind has not been all that focused lately and when I do take the time to sit down and update my blog I cannot find the words to say. I will try to muster up some words now but cannot be sure how coherent they will be and I am hoping to not confuse those few who keep up with me here.
The other day I was listening to music while cleaning out & rearranging my garage when the song "Jesus Paid it All" came on. A song I have listened to many times and is one of my favorites. Although, this particular day the words in verse 3 struck me with a deeper meaning than I had never afforded them. As the words came I just stopped lowered my head and through tears smiled.
"And when before the throne
I stand in Him complete,
Jesus died my soul to save
my lips shall still repeat
I thought about my Mother, brother, and Father-in-law, all who have gone on to be with Jesus. Life without them has not been easy, every day I think of them and long to see their face and hug their neck. I remember praying fervently for their healing and though I have a peace, I always wondered why my prayers went "unanswered".
Or so I thought!
As the words of the song poured over me it was as if a switch was turned on and my eyes were opened ~ THEY ARE COMPLETE!! My prayers were not unaswered as I had thought, they were answered but not in the way I had wished for them to be. There is no more perfect healing than to be COMPLETE in the Lord. That doesn't mean their absense is any less painful. But as I think of them now I am reminded that what it was that limited them is gone, what it was that was stolen from them by disease has been restored, what was silent now sings and the old is new.
What a JOY that is! I will still cry when I think of them and long they were here with me. But, I rest in the promise of God that I will be reunited with them, that they are a new creation and there is no sadness,disease, or pain in heaven. I am so very thankful that we do not greive as those who have no hope.
Madeline and I ran in the Fort Worth Cowtown 5K this morning. It was a chilly start but we warmed up quickly once we began moving and the sun rose over the buildings. There was literally a sea of people lined up for the start. We were about 10 yards back from the starting line, I felt like cattle waiting to be herded.
This was a first for both of us, running in a 5K. I have been told not to run seeing that the majority of the cartilage is missing in my right knee.I did anyway and my knee made it all of 5 minutes before it buckled and lost most of its strength. I was able to continue to the end but slowly which was not a bad thing. 
At first Madeline had a hard time running at an even place. She wanted to sprint the whole race but quickly realized that it was longer than she had expected and slowed to a more even pace. We ran most of the race only walking for 3 short distances.
We crossed the finish line with a time of 1 hour 7 minutes 56 seconds and I thought "WOW, that hour went fast." I looked at my watch and realized we had only been running for 25 minutes. I later learned that either the "kids 5k run" was marked off wrong or a "course monitor" sent the whole lot of us on the wrong route. We ACTUALLY only ran a 2.5K (1.8 miles). Again, this turned out not to be a bad thing and my knee was very appreciative. I know the 2 weeks of pain I am going to have in my knee is all worth the GREAT time spent with Madeline today. 
